Fish trapped in too small fish bowls.

I'm a little befuddled right now. I'm not really sure what's going on, or how to fix problems that have arisen, but here I am sitting at my computer in a highly calm state. But even though I'm calm, something's not right. It doesn't feel right anyway.

Packing is still an on-going endeavor. I can't seem to finish it, or even make it look like I was productive, because I'm not sure where to start. Also, while I'm excited for the new opportunities that are sure to be present in my new abode, I'm really sad to be leaving my present one. I know it's not a good thing to get too comfortable in situations, if it keeps you from wanting to try new ones, but I have a good life, with good friends, and good family. I can't really get rid of the family part (believe me, I know), but I'm worried about the friends thing. I have discovered that I know more people in Salt Lake than I thought I did, and I think they'll be a lot of fun to hang out with on a regular basis, but I'm hesitant because I do not want to lose any of the friends I've had for so long and value so much. Distance really does suck, even if it's not all that far. I just want to hang out with people I won't be able to see very often, and I'm slightly frustrated now because it seems like it's too hard of an endeavor to accomplish lately. I guess it would be easier if I was the hermit I once was, but now I'm accustomed to more. So basically everyone's busy or not in the mood to hang out, and it worries me because if it's so hard to do stuff when I'm around, who's going to take the extra effort when it's no longer convenient?

Oh well, what can you do? I can't expect people to want to hang out with me all the time, as won't be the case in Salt Lake, which might be a good thing once school starts. I guess I should hone my other skills I've been ignoring lately. I just realized that I won't have the time to throw when I'm at my new place, or the capabilities to do so actually, so maybe that's how I'll spend tonight. It's just frustrating the effort that goes into it, and the pot I threw the other day broke when my dad decided to put a box on top of it. Gggrrrrrr... Man I need some money. Then I could strap a stupid motor on the thing. And maybe buy a new car. Today was not all that hot, so I felt okay not having ac in my current mode of transportation, but I have a feeling that will change as time goes on. Regardless, I love driving Eve. She's such a good car. Her stereo is better than mine, which I think I mentioned..when it decides to work. And she handles better than my car. So much easier to shift and drive. I might actually start to like driving again, which actually I don't think I minded back in the day. It's weird to think that she was my first car, and she's totally still running. My niece inherited her when I got a new car, which was distressing considering she was always my back up plan, so it's fortunate she lost her driving privileges just in time for me to benefit from the situation.