I love my new camera.

And snow. This I took while driving, which will surely lead to my death.

( I still need to post Thanksgiving stuff, but I was using my sister's camera, so I don't have the pictures. I'll do it later though, when I have less school stuff to worry about.)

It snowed yesterday! A lot. And I was surprised how happy it made me. I've been very anxious lately, and not in the best of spirits, because I have this huge research paper due tomorrow, and a presentation where I need to use powerpoint due with it, and I've yet to finish either. I work this week, so it's a problem, and if you know me at all it shouldn't surprise you that presenting in front of people is an equation for disaster where I'm involved. That said, I'm anxious.

So it's amazing how snow can change your whole outlook. Maybe I'm just bipolar. I've actually been seriously considering that lately...it would make sense. Bipolar and anemic, oh the tragic life I lead. But speaking of snow, I had a riot of a time driving yesterday morning. I arrived at work positively giddy after skidding wildly out of control various times, and I mean that without sarcasm intended. In the words of my good friend Mody, I "scream with delight" whenever I lose control of my car in the snow. That's so how I want to die I've decided. I know I'm not the only person to think of how I want to die so I refuse to think of these thoughts as morbid, but while most people settle with 'of natural causes' in their sleep, I have to say that doesn't so much appeal to me. It freaks me out quite frankly. This is probably due to watching a Body Stories video (PBS or Nova style) at work on just that. Basically you're internally bleeding to death or the like, but just don't know it. You're thinking it's indegestion or something. So now when I'm all old, every time I get indegestion I'll think, "I'm dying." No thank you. Nobody wants to drown (at least I don't like the smothering feeling), nobody wants to be burned to death, I personally wouldn't like to freeze to death because I'm a huge baby where cold is concerned, cancer is drawn out...yeah, I think a car accident is totally the way to go. Possibly painful, but I think the euphoria of losing control of my car would make that manageable. I know this for a fact because 2 years ago when I almost hit that dog on the freeway at 4 in the morning, and I swerved to miss it (yeah, I know you're not supposed to do that, but it's more reflexive than you'd think, so don't judge until you've experienced it yourself), my car went wildly careening out of control and my (last) thoughts verbatum were, "this would be so much fun if I weren't about to die." Multiple 180's on the freeway when you're the only one on the road=Screams of delight. Think of rollercoasters. Of course I would never try to get in a car accident, and to be truly happy about it I'd have to be old and it'd have to involve inanimate non-living objects, and not another car, and I'd have to have only have one leg before this point so I can experience the whole phantom limb phenomena (which I've always been curious about)... You have to admit, that's a good way to go. I've already got the getting into accidents with inanimate objects part down (to an exact science actually), so the whole thing is not too far fetched.

And these are just some of the things I think about when I should be studying.